So, the last few weeks I haven't felt quite right and I figured out that I'm experiencing a little bit of a mid-life crisis. I'm just not happy. I've been trying to analyze myself and figure out what I need. I need to go back to school. My parents keep telling me that I'm the perpetual student. When I was in school I felt like I was actually working toward something, there was a huge goal in sight. But, now I've earned my Masters' Degree and I got a job that I really wanted and I'm suddenly stuck. Now what? What am I working toward now? I just get up every morning and do the same thing, and my job isn't quite what I thought it would be. I was not nearly prepared enough in my program to understand what in the world I'm supposed to be doing right now in my job. I feel like I'm not making a difference at all. The best job I ever had was with Dr. Green. I LOVED assisting and I could see the results of my work. What I was expected to do was very concrete and the work I did was appreciated.
I've come up with a couple things that I'm going to try to get myself out of the funky unhappiness.
1. I'm going to start training for a 10K with my friend Kjersti.
2. I'm looking into cooking classes. Maybe I'll become a pastry chef someday...
3. I'm going to focus on saving my money (which means slightly cutting back on the shopping sprees. I haven't bought any new clothes so far this month!) and by the end of the year get a house of my own. My tax guy gave me some good information that really got the wheels turning.
I just need some more goals to work towards. School is just something that I am the most familiar with so that's what I fall back on. I'm also a nerd and I love school.
Any suggestions would be welcomed! Am I the only one who has ever experienced this right after graduating?
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Mid-Life Crisis
Posted by Sarah W. at 5:43 PM
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we should chat..let's go to dinner...
I know what you are feeling.It took me the year that I've had off to really decide that I want to teach again. I felt the same way after graduating, but never knew what to do about it.Maybe it's time to re-evaluate and decide if it's(being a counselor)something you see yourself doing long term.It took me up until a few months ago to decide that I wanted to do what I had gone to school for-to teach. Maybe apply for a year's leave and get a job with Dr. Green again or something and then decide.I'm telling you this from experience, I had once thought that I was ready to quit and do something else and it took a long time to decide what was best for me and my little family.
If you need to talk, you have my number
I actually relate. Just before (during my internship) and just after graduating- I felt.... stuck. Not happy with what I was doing. Part of that was just adjusting- part of that was dealing with the accident. I wanted to go back to school so badly (I'm a nerd too). I wanted to know if teaching is really what I wanted to do. Now, I'd say yes, I will go back to teaching- but this is after a break. I too felt under-prepared by school. And now- before I will go back again, I'll go to a bit more school, get a masters, and have a WAY better perspective on how to apply what they are teaching. I think it should be manditory for them to make you work BEFORE you're done with school so you can go back and ask questions! So when are you coming over?
Which reminds me, I need to bring the training schedule! ( I will tomorrow, I will put it in my purse right now!) I am SOO happy you are doing the 10k with me! We could maybe work out some times to train together after school!
Oh girl -- I felt the same way after having kids -- it seems totally unrelated, but trust me, I know all about this...but you have TONS of options -- School is fun -- there's only one thing you can take with you and that's knowledge - it could never hurt to have more. You'll eventually find your groove - (except I'm still waiting for mine...) Love you!
I think everyone feels in this rut at one or another! For about four years until I got married I just looked for any opportunity to stay bizzay. I served a church service mission, I joined a church volleyball and basketball team, I tried to volunteer at random places, I took online classes.... etc.
Right now I'm still in this 'rut' and I kinda think it's a good thing to always feel kinda in this 'rut'... that means you are wanting something more! I had a thought a couple weeks ago... I should learn to play the piano! So I'm getting a keyboard and will work on it. Other than that there is Family Search Indexing to do for the church, you can go to the temple,etc. I love your other ideas too... they're all fabulous.
Good luck and keep us updated! Love ya and love the new place with Kandus!
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