Friday, May 22, 2009

Deep Thoughts...

Have you ever wondered if there's something more to life than what you have? Do you ever just have the desire to simply be happy with what you've got, where you are, and who you are?

I've been contemplating these questions over the past 24 hours. I'm not quite sure where my head is at the moment. I've got a good life. I've got a great roommate, a very nice home, a supportive family, wonderful friends who keep me very busy, a job, an income, all the things I need and want, so why am I not completely content? There's something missing. What that is I do not know. I'm lonely and yet I'm constantly surrounded by great people who love me. I'm lost and yet I have all the things in life I need. Where do I go from here? What would make me happy and content with my life? Will I never be content? Is this a realization that life is a never-ending learning process? If this is supposed to be a great spiritual realization why does it not feel like it's of the Spirit? I want to feel complete. I want to feel like I have a purpose. I want to feel like I am working towards some amazing goal. What's missing? Where do I go from here?

2 comments:

Kayleen said...

November Ensign pg. 21.

BECKY said...

You and I haven't had deep conversations and so I don't want anything I say to offend you because I don't know your complete situation.

For me personally I asked those questions over and over until I met Aaron and we got married. Marriage for me was the answer to my life that I felt was not really going anywhere; I mean I was having a fun time, but needed something more. Hopefully now we can continue the 'normal' stages of life and have children and watch them grow up and continue to grow and experience new things. Of course, we're still always wondering what's next and what to do, but at least we feel we're on a good track.

So I really don't know where your and Tyler's relationship is. I don't know if you've chosen to never marry for him or what.

I wish you the best and hope you receive the revelation you are needing. Let me know if you need to talk. Love ya!

P.S. Fun West Yellowstone pics! How can you not love that place?!