What if...

Since I haven't posted anything for awhile I'll give you a little insight as to where I've been........

Spending lots of time in my head.

Now, I don't need the usual lectures about thinking too much, wondering about the "What ifs" too much. I know all those lectures and I give them to myself frequently. But, lately I have been spending time with the "What ifs" again.

What if....

Tyler were still here?

I had been with him?

I hadn't let him go?

I'm supposed to wait?

Tyler forgets about me?

I never get to see Tyler again?

I could invent a Time Travel Machine?

my issues with Tyler are what's preventing me from dating?

I never get asked out ever again?

I buy a house?

I don't make enough money?

I can't handle living alone?

I can't find a roommate?

I'm making the wrong choices?

I'm making the right choices?

I don't love my job and want something new?

my principal doesn't sign my contract allowing me to receive tenure at the end of the year?

I can't figure out what I should be giving my secretary to do during the day and she continues to sit there staring at me or reading a book?

some of my friends forget about me because I live so far away and can't afford to move back up there?

I go to a new ward?

Darcy gets sick again?

I'm the one who caused Darcy to get sick in the first place?

I never lose 10 more pounds?

all my hair falls out?

I will always be alone?

I will always be alone??

I will always be alone???

I will always be alone????


Sometimes it's okay to spend a little time with the "What ifs." I'm sure I'll climb out soon (I'd better because I'm near brain exploding time). But, for now I think I can sum everything up with a simple, "What comes next?"