Tyler's 26th Birthday

It's a strange feeling to realize that yet another year has passed. Tyler Scott Elder would have been 26 years old today. I've always got the "What ifs..." and the "If onlys..." running through the back of my mind, and today is one of those days where they take up most of my brain power.
I was asked once what I fear the most. My answer to that question remains the same as it was a few years ago... forgetting. Whether it's me forgetting or me being forgotten. I never realized that fear until I lost my Tyler. I don't want to forget him. I don't want to forget the way he made me feel. I don't want to forget anything about him, even the things that drove me crazy. I also don't want him to forget me. After the accident people often made comments that he is happier where he is now, that he's got an important work ahead of him in the Spirit World. While I hope and pray for his comfort and happiness, I'm also quite selfish. He really was quite happy here on Earth with me. I don't want him to get so busy that he'll forget me. There are things in life that are so much bigger and more important than that, and yet I spend my time fretting that he's forgotten me. That he's forgotten the promises he's made to me.
I have gained a testimony of many things over the last 4 years and 4 months, but the testimony I hold the most dear is that we take our emotions and our memories with us when we leave this life. We still feel things as we felt them here. I try to believe that Tyler's love for me remains. I believe that Heavenly Father loves me and because of that He recognizes what is most important to me and He values my relationship with Tyler as much as I do.
If all else fails, my love for Tyler remains forever, just like I promised.